Yesterday was day 250 of not crying for yesterday

Yesterday was day 250 - the anniversary of my intentional learning journey.

I felt compelled this morning to check how many days it’s been since the song first came in to my thoughts: Duran Duran’s Ordinary World in particular the haunting yet soothing chorus;

“...But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive...”

What does this all mean? For me, it means I had a moment with myself, listening intently to my inner intuition, I woke with this song floating in my mind. It was an epiphany. It was a moment in time to stop, pause, breathe, be present and open to receive all of the feelings and emotions that came with what does this song mean for me?

Life is a series of events that flashes before your eyes. When you are watching a movie, you’re there but you’re not there. You’re just watching the movie unfold, right? Well this is no different to your life. What if you are just an observer of that which is unfolding. What if you could enjoy just sitting and watching the movie? Instead of thinking about what the Director or Producer could have, should have done? Or why did the actor miss that very important clue? You could see it from a mile away?

The song is a turning point in my life for me. It was my willingness and openness to look within and look differently at my life. No more crying for yesterday even though there has been plenty of crying for yesterday because that’s part and parcel of the process. Letting go of everything that’s not you.

All the masks I have created to mask the inner me, to hide the vulnerable heart within. All the walls I have built to guard against those who might attack the preciousness I have left within. All the masks have slowly come off. Walls have been brought down. What’s left is the person I know myself to be. The who I am for myself, I am now that with everyone. I still slip up now and again but remind myself I’m practicing being me, just me - with my flaws and failings for all to see. And it’s a freedom to have an access to my inner sanctuary across all areas of my life.

Like anything practice practice practice until it becomes a habit.