What if I don’t have all the answers?

Life has peculiar ways of communicating to and with you.

I was at Park Run and out of nowhere something said to me it’s not about the outcome, the finish line, the time.

It’s about the journey, what did you pay attention to along the way? Did you listen to yourself and trust yourself? Did you ignore your own warning system?

It’s time to listen within, to the power within. It’s time to honour yourself as your SELF.

So today I decided to listen in more and quiet my thoughts and opinions, but open up more to my intuition and inner wisdom.

I opened up my heart, connected with others and made it a choice to be in other people’s worlds, to be interested, to be patient and kind with myself and consequently others too.

When I’m being present great things happen. I made a friend in someone without trying. I discovered things about people I had not before.

Sometimes the voice just comes to you. It’s your voice but you’ll know why it comes to you. There is something to be said. Something to be heard not just for your sake.

I have been on a journey of self discovery. Reading books as I come across them. Listening to wisdom from thousands of years. And writing what comes from within as I go along.

Yesterday was the second time I just couldn’t explain my emotions. I felt overwhelmed with the mask falling away. I felt open and vulnerable and willing to give up my facades.

It’s been 40 years of living this world thinking I was alone and navigating it on my own. Doing it on my own. When in fact I have been protected and guided all along. It’s the realisation of just how much control the inner voice can have over your experience of life.

Letting go. Let go. It finally happened I think.

Letting go of all that hasn’t served me. What hasn’t worked. The conversations about myself, about others, about the world that just don’t work.

Realising that I have had everything I need this whole time.

What happened next is remarkable and unbelievable but for me, it’s like I shook the coconut tree and the coconuts all fell down for me. A magic portal, a door opened, I found the treasure in the hidden cave and unsure how I just received it.

This is what happens when you trust yourself and put yourself out there. This is what happens when you act in service of the things you are most passionate about, most inspired by.

Everything shows up through this new perspective of yourself and your life.

I don’t know how I did it. I just did. I let go of my past well and truly and what that makes available is anything and everything. Anything is possible now. A blank canvas.

This is why I don’t have all the answers but that I can trust myself. I’m walking on the right travelator toward the destination of my dreams.

It’s your season if you say it is. You are on the court of your life if you say you are. You word is much more powerful than you know and if you use it like this you’ll be ok: I don’t have all the answers but I trust myself and the journey of my life.