I share this in the hopes you will find yourself somewhere in my words. For you, it might be another command or statement that will stop you from really showing up in the world.
I believe if you are ready to receive learning, things will happen and it won't always be apparent at the time.
Something happens. You make up a story. You say to yourself you are x y and z. Which always under the circumstances will be something that doesn't serve you. Then a series of decisions are made because of your view and/or perspective of x y z.
Let me give you an example, at some stage when I was little something happened and I said I'm not good enough. I wasn't the first one picked for a sports side, "I'm not good enough", I was left behind riding my bike home, "I'm not good enough". I applied for a hundred jobs with no replies, "I'm not good enough". These things left me feeling lonely and alone and over time, I would learn not to trust people and give of my whole self and I would be hyper sensitive to rejection and ultimately, just give up.
Over time, when you say these things to yourself so much you just believe it. Its just the air you breathe and the water you swim in. You forget that its actually something you said to yourself, you made it up and its not the TRUTH.
Fast forward to this moment, I was looking for approval for the work I was doing to create this amazing business opportunity. I could hear myself saying, "why do I need to explain myself? However, each comment that was coming to me, I was unknowingly saying "You think I'm not good enough". and so, little did I know I was actually locked in "I'm not good enough", worse than "You think I'm not good enough, was IF you think I'm not good enough then I'll just give up".
I had a moment to reflect. I asked myself what is going on here? If I am to be 100% responsible here, what was it that I needed? I needed trust. Why do I need trust from something outside of myself? Do I trust myself? Yes I do. So if I trust myself, what is going on. What's going on is your inner voice telling you from the past, that you are not good enough. When you perceive you don't get approval, you feel rejection and its bringing up your past. And to protect yourself in the past, "I'm not good enough" was something you made up. When you know you made it up you can give it up.
I shared what was opening up for me with my sister in that moment because I finally felt the epiphany. I don't need to keep believing Im not good enough. When you share with someone it becomes real and alive because its not just a conversation with yourself anymore.
I AM good enough, There is only one ME in the world. How can I not be good enough to be ME? That's really all we can be - is ourselves.
What is stopping you being you? Think about the things you say to yourself. Those things you say that leave you stopped. Those things you say that don't serve you. If you can catch yourself and slow down, you will see the things you say that are NOT the TRUTH.
Imagine what life would be like if these barriers of our own creation, were just no longer in the way. What kind of life is available?
What if we do hold great power in the words we use? "With great power, comes great responsibility" (Favourite quote from Spiderman). This is so true. Now that we know this, we can't unlearn it. So what will you do with the power of your words?
How did I get to see all of this? I have done a lot of personal development courses, read a lot of books, practiced affirmations etc. However, there is a difference between learning something and applying it. Theoretical versus practice. Its in the applying what you learn is when you create an imprint in your memory. You practice what you learn and then its embedded and you never have to remember or learn it again.
To enable an environment like this, you don't just need the content. You need the context and the content. That's where having access to unheralded mentorship and genuine support and a platform for growth is what you need. It has helped me to uncover the real me and everything I have ever learnt is not lost or forgotten - its unleashed.
Hi my name is Angela. I have loved writing since I was able to hold a pencil in my hand. I soon learnt I had a gift of connecting with my ancestors through writing before my 30th birthday.