What is the inner battle?
It is unscrupulous, it can, if you allow it, sneak up on you.
Its related to the fast decisions we make within milliseconds about what is going on in and around the world before us.
Its our filters. And if we are not careful to preview these filters, we actually can and will become disabled and debilitated by our very own thoughts and feelings.
You see for all its faults, the movie, The Golden Compass, did reflect one very good analogy of our "disappointing self" versus our "diamond self".
Put another way, our ego self versus our healthy self? Use the "label", that best fits your understanding. I usually never could associate ego with understanding so I like the description of disappointing self. You might like to research some more until you find the description that best resonates with you.
Its always and often referred to as ego, shadow self etc.
You know this self, its the one that plants the seed of doubt within you. Even in the absence of any evidence, will try to convince you that you are a failure, incapable, full of flaws, flawed.
Conversely, the diamond self is the one who is your cheerleader, your greatest fan, your number one supporter, your creativity unlocked and unleashed.
The inner battle, is the battle between these two invisible powers. Who will win?
If you allow the disappointing self to run riot, without first previewing the stories that pass through your filters, it will surely win.
Then you will need to be careful because it creeps on you without you realising.
One foolproof way to convince yourself is to test what it is you're saying and ask yourself but who said this and where is the evidence?
I have a statement that commonly arises in the inner battle moments: what did I do wrong or I didnt do anything wrong? It’s not my fault, it’s my fault.
You can pay attention and observe closely. Be an observer and a witness much in the same way you notice nature. You’ll catch your own versions of these statements.
Further more everything is virtually a distraction. A distraction from what you are really committed to. That’s what I’ll be writing about next time so watch this space.
Hi my name is Angela. I have loved writing since I was able to hold a pencil in my hand. I soon learnt I had a gift of connecting with my ancestors through writing before my 30th birthday.