Mind, what mind?

I am an insanely curious person about people and what they’re capable of. I’ve acknowledged that I’ve been this way since about 2007.

I attended the landmark forum and the curriculum of life from about this time and my whole view of myself and hence, the world shifted and changed.

But little did I know, that the learning platform I now have access to was going to give me the kind of personal growth and rigorous insight I was looking for in 2007 by virtue of my willingness to take myself on.

What do I mean by take myself on? There is a context within the learning platform that says your ability to produce outcomes is equal to your willingness to look at yourself and grow. Grow what exactly? Grow your mindset. Before you write this off as another guru, voodoo, new agey thing, it’s really all about you and what you really want for your life and having the access to get it.

I walked in to this platform knowing I wanted a mentor or mentors and coaching and guidance around my career, around my relationships, essentially any and all aspects of my life. I also walked in thinking how hard can it be, I’ve done the landmark forum and the curriculum for life.

I started writing this blog thinking I would be writing a triumph around my daughter and my youngest brother but im just trusting what is coming up right now. It’s midnight and I need to share this story instead.

When I participated in the landmark forum, the advanced course and the self expression and leadership program, and the introduction leaders program, don’t get me wrong, I did learn a lot and I did get and produce results but my life back then looks completely different to what my life looks like now.

Back then I was single. Now I’m married. Back then I was child free. Now I have three.

So in 13 years, of course my life has changed.

Originally when mum introduced this platform to me two years ago I had no idea what she was going on about and I just blindly helped her with cautious trepidation because I was operating from a here we go again place.

Over the years mum has tried every single thing you can imagine some good and some not so good. The balance of not so good to good, winning. So it was easy for me to make an assumption on the side of not so good.

When I finally got an open mind and said a real yes to her, I turned up to be with her and really listen openly from a new place and attended a two day event with her, the learning community and the founders.

That was the first access, the next was taking on the learning modules, next was tackling the technical and after that was facing head on all the things in my life that don’t work for me.

See what began to happen is I started a new routine for myself. Meditation daily. Reading books or listening to podcasts on personal development/spirituality/growth mindset daily. I begin to unravel everything that wasn’t me.

When I was by myself I started to see more of myself show up. In my writing, I started to see more of myself show up. In my video journal, I started to see more of myself show up.

I gave myself permission to show up and when I did this, it also shone a light on everything that wasn’t me, everything that is not a match for what I really want in life.

Another aspect of my growth is that I received the coaching wholeheartedly. When you are willing to give the coach 100% permission then you’re going to get much more from the coaching session then if you only give them 50% permission. So I realised for myself that it’s possible I only gave 50% permission way back when I did the curriculum for life.

The things that we call hurdles or challenges are actually in service of finding what we’re really made of. Every single one of those moments is a gift. If you could just see that they are the crumbs or clues to getting closer to who you really are.

The more I have been listening to my true self and expressing her, the more I hear her. The more I hear her the more I realise how much I really have to say and how much catching up I have to do. I have about 37 years to catch up on. I have so much discovery about the 37 years now that I didn’t have before.

Assuming I got language when I was 3.

When you are willing to keep on looking at yourself no matter what is going on in your life, when you’re willing to take 100% responsibility, not blame, shame, guilt, bad or wrong. Just realising that every single thing that hasn’t worked for you has been because you haven’t listened to her, your inner voice and what she really has to say, underneath her anger, underneath her rage, her upset, her frustration, her sadness, is an undelivered message from a past moment that needs healing.

The healing comes from the simplicity of saying exactly how you feel about the past moment that needs healing.

Like anything this takes practice. It’s takes working within a framework and context that is created within the learning platform, and the community and the safe space it provides.